A date with you always the best!

So, the last time on the 30th of May, me and le familia went back to KL. Not to forget to mention, Teeka, my bestfriend, was with us.

And of course, I took the chance to meet my lovely boyfriend (who is now my fiancé) We went on a date with my best friend. We went to Sunway Pyramid and Summit. I sure had lots of fun.

You readers might wonder, why I call him my fiancé now. Well, on the last date, he proposed me and we bought the rings. He's always the best.

God, I would like to thank You for making him, mine. He's one of the best thing that is happening to me.

I have to admit, through out this 6 months. We fight, a lot. Just had a big one recently. But with all those fight. It made me realized, I can't live without him. I'm nothing without him. He's one of the biggest reason, I'm smiling. (yes, including smiling alone like an idiot.) And with all those fights, it just makes me love him even more.

Sayang, thank you for proposing me. I love you so much. You have been the best lover ever. You made me a stronger person. I don't know what would I do without you.

He's in Singapore with his mum and little sister from today the 14th till Tuesday, the 19th. I hope he's having fun cause him having fun means I'm having fun too. Bring me back yourself safely please. Take care and have fun. Remember, I'll always love you. I miss you, Sayang!

You know what sucks?

Knowing the real thing that has been bothering me all these while. And it actually effect my relationship.

Yeah the real thing that makes me frustrated, :( I wish I could tell him what's the real thing just like how I told Lucas or Ami. :( but this, it's not easy ya know. He's different, he's the love of my life. He's the one. It's just do hard that its making me burst into tears right now.

I guess, that's it. Good day!

Why am I doing this to myself?

I cry so bad and act like I'm okay so that he doesn't know how I am actually feeling about this? I miss him a lot. I wanna meet him but I can't. Am I the only one excited about my 6months anniv? I know he is but why isn't he acting like he is? I can't meet him on the 29th-31st, I'm sorry. It's a family thing. And I'm not a 100% sure bout meeting him on the 1st/2nd. But don't you know that I'll try my best just to meet you? I wanna meet you. I wanna hang out with you. And celebrate your birthday and our anniv. But at the same time, I don't want you to feel like I control you or anything. I don't wanna be selfish. Oh my, I am crying my eyes out cause I've been missing you so much. And I thought you said you wanted to choose our ring together? What happened to that? Oh my. Screw me. I have to let him have fun with his friends. A girlfriend needs to give her boyfriend some space right? Well, I'll give it to you even if it hurts me that much. Have fun later.