The hardest thing on Earth.c

It is actually very hard to not be selfish in a relationship. It is also hard to be happy for your partner. Last, it is hard to hold up the tears.

Right now, I hate long distance relationship. Cause when you are free and near to your partner, they're busy with their life activities and you have to let them go cause you dont wanna be selfish in this relationship. And vice versa.

Babe,I swear right now I am trying my best to smile and laugh and be positive for you. I wish it was that easy. But whatevs, I want you to have fun with your friends and not just me. So live your life and have fun.

16th of April 2012

Oh hi, hello. It may be too late for me to update about my birthday this year, but I really wanna my boyfriend; Asyari to know what I'm feeling about my birthday this year :)

Hi baby, first of all' I MISS YOU SO BAD. Second of all; no matter how bad we argued over silly little things, I love you no matter what, and it hasnt get any lesser since the day I fall for you <3 :] Third, I would like to thank you for your courage for coming here in Jakarta to celebrate my birthday with me. Yes people, he came here and slept over at my house for 3 days 2 nights just to be with me on my birthday. Eff yeah, its the sweetest thing ever. You being here is like the best present of all. And I really hope I can be there for your birthday. Amien to that.

1st night when he reached here, my dad asked him to cook some satay for us. It was fun, eventhough he was tired, he still fulfill what my dad asked him to do. :] I am sorry love for that. Here are some pictures of us together :P The whole 3 days 2 nights. :) I know, I'm a camwhore =_=

I love you so much, Asyari. Thanks for everything :')

I was camwhoring while he was watching Phineas And Ferb the Movie :P  Cute yeah?

Look at the way he smiles. He's the reason  my heart is beating. :)

I know I'm cute. Pshht. Shut up. HAHA I love you sayang :*

Awak.. Kenapa awak comel sangat? Saya geram laaaa :B :*

He may look so Malay but when he speaks Malay, I swear to God, WEIRD gila. Kan sayang kan? Mesti dia ckp "Asal plak?" HAHAHAH xD

Yeah, sibuk je dia nak senyum senyum kat belakang. HAHAH ; I love you  much :P

I love how silly I can be when I'm with him. How messy my hair can be when he's around and  how he treats my family and me :') ILOVEYOU!

I dont know who reads my blog, but I am sure my boyfriend is reading it right now. I really hope I am putting a smile on his face. Are you smiling now sayang? Hehe. I am sorry if I keep hurting you, the thing I know and I am sure of now is I love you and you are the one I wanna be married to. Yes, I love you so much :")

P/S: Stop smiling. :P

I just love you :]

Hi Asy'ari Amir, why do I love you? Why did I wait for you for years? I have no idea myself. When we first chat, I can feel that you understand me in every possible way. And the courage you have to come to Puncak Alam just to meet me made me love you even more. And how you were being so gentleman that you met my family on our first date just made me realized, I am in love with this guy that I do not wanna let him go.

You boy, taught me lots of things. You are the one, you are like the dream boy of every girl in this planet. You high level of patience really does impressed my mom, cause she said I am that one girl that is very hard to understand. You dont care about what people says makes me feel like I am in my own world every time we date.

Every fight we had just make our love stronger. Just makes me know you better and make you know me better. You are the boy that my mum approved. She likes  you. I really love you sayang, :* Thanks for being mine. I promise I will try my very best to not hurt you, cause hurting/disappointing/making you feel sad is the last thing I wanna do. Waking up to you morning texts just gimme more spirit to actually go through my day, And sleeping to your goodnight texts just make my night warmer, safer and lovelier.

I dont care if I dont have friends, as long as I have you because you are loving like a father, strict like a mother, understands like a sister, annoying like a brother, naughty like a little brother, sweet like a little sister. You are my bestfriend and my boyfriend. Thank you, baby boo :* I love you so much!



p/s: @AsyariAmir91, I am sorry but I am deeply in love with the guy named Muhamad Asy'ari bin Amir Arif. Yes, Nur Nadeera Farhana binti Hasrul Aizam loves Muhamad Asy'ari bin Amir Arif so much. That I cannot see the world clearly without you. I heart you, my love. Only you.

To girls out there; He is mine. I dont share my boy. He is only mine, So, you better back off or I will make sure that you dont have a good life for the rest of your life. Thank you.