JEALOUS

That is a big word, isn't it? What the hell is the meaning of this word actually?

From the dictionary: feeling resentment against someone because of that person's rivalry, success, or advantages

From my mom: its when you feel like someone else is perfect & you're not.

From my dad: cemburu sebab dengki

From my sister: its a feeling

From a bestfriend of mine: jealous is jeles in malay (-,-)

From me: it depends on what is it about, it has its own definition. Having this kinda feeling, suck so bad.

Yeah, I am feeling this now. Why? Well, I have a crush, & he's somehow my close friend. He's super kind. He's just different than others. The thing is, he's crushing on someone else. I know, as a friend of his, I should be happy. Well, at least, he's happy. But, this JEALOUS feeling is kinda killing me. A bestfriend of mine said we are too young to be THAT serious in love. Yes, I agreed. But this feeling of liking him is different man.

This feeling of Jealousy, makes me cry everytime I think about it. Well, yeah. Its crazy to cry bcz of tiny things. But, this feeling is somehow different. I accidently made it too obvious that I am jealous, and he was actually asking me, "are you jealous?" I hope I could tell him, "yes, I am. Isn't it obvious enough that I like you?!" Instead of "I am not jealous, goodnight:p" I know, this is a piece of crap. But darn, I hate this feelings.

#dearyou, isn't it obvious enough? I like you. Man, you're always in my head. I tried to deny you, but nothing make me feel so wrong. & we got lost along the way. So, here I am, with all my heart admitting that I love you. Yes, you. Mr. A. I love you. <3 but I wanna stop breaking my heart, so, I should stop this. Goodnight, Mr. A. Love, your crush. <33 :(